LIke I've mentioned before, It does not take much to make me happy. Simple things can make me ream with joy. Does ream make sense there? Possibly not. Possibly yes. I, sometimes use words just because I like them or the way they sound. Even if they are out of context. Maybe, I'm revolutionary. Or maybe I'm a fool.

Anywho, I check my blog at least once a day. Usually. I really enjoy writing. I write something everyday. A quote I think up. A poem. Random thoughts or words. I also read something everyday. I am currently reading Sarah Silverman's, Bedwetter and I have never laughed so hard at a book in my life. I've heard people say they do not like her and it bothers me because saying you don't like someone whom you most likely do not know is pretty harsh. On the other hand, maybe saying you do like someone you do not know is naive.

But, I like her. Her humor can be shocking but it's supposed to be. I've always liked people who were strange. I'm pretty strange myself. Her humor is smart though. She is usually trying to get people to see how silly racism and ignorance are by acting as if she was that way. That is my take on it at least. She said she will not get married until gay people can get married. She said something along the lines of why would you want to join a club that hates others, it's like joining a country club that doesn't like Jewish people. Sarah is Jewish and takes joy in poking fun of her self.

The point of this blog was to share my happiness with coming onto my blog and seeing new followers. But, I have digressed and discussed Sarah Silverman. Nevertheless, please keep reading and thank you.

I would love suggestions, questions, or comments for further blogs.

Thanks again friends. :-)



Keith

Impulsive: "Motivated by or resulting from impulse: such impulsive acts as hugging strangers; impulsive generosity." Freedictionary.com

I can be impulsive at times.

not schizophrenic just complex

wild, rebellious, quiet, homebody, shy, outgoing, thoughtful, closed off, hopeful romantic

these are some adjectives i'd use to describe myself. i was inspired by someone's blog entry about how he believes everyone has two sides to their personality

i have to agree with this. it has been confusing and a struggle for me at times because having extreme opposite personality traits can make me feel lost or incomplete. but, i just have to accept myself as I am. there is nothing wrong with who i am. i am just a complex individual, like everyone else. i may be super outgoing one day and tight lipped the next. i may be feeling very adventurous one day and not want to leave my house the next. i might want to go clubbing one night and stay in and watch a movie the next night. i might feel very happy one minute but become saddened by a thought or action that has occurred the next.

what's funny is some people have only seen certain sides of me, mainly because i only allow them to see certain sides of me. maybe because i do not trust them or feel that they deserve to see certain sides of me. the best part is these people choose to make judgements based on what they've seen. these people might even claim to be my friends, but this feeling is not mutual. i have a small number of people i consider to be my real friends.

so moral of this story is, i am beginning to understand that there are different parts of myself and i am learning to be okay with that.

the little things

the little things make my day

a kind word, a thoughtful gesture

it doesn't take much to make me happy


Happy Memorial Day

Kill anxiety with kindness

"Anxiety - fearful concern or interest." - Merriam-Webster's Online Dictionary

Anxiety is a bitch. I suffer from it, we all do. In this day and age we have so much going on with so many distractions that it is inevitable. How we respond to our fears is what makes or breaks us.

I have learned that avoidance is not the way to go. You must face your anxieties head on and work through them.

I encourage you to face your fears boldly with a smile on your face. Show those haters your smile and kill 'em with kindness.

Kill anxiety with kindness.

I'm still working towards my goal of blogging every day for a week. This is my second to last entry away from that goal. Today is the first day I am having a hard time thinking of what to write about. So I thought I'd wing it, and I hope I can share some wisdom or inspire - which is why I do this, I think. It is what I look for in others writings. You can always learn something.

Xtina postponed her tour until 2011. Meaning that those plans in which I wrote about when I first started this, blog-a-day-for-a-week goal are a no-go. Boo. She did not release an official statement herself, as far as I know. Her representatives say she realized she will not have enough time to rehearse. Others speculate poor ticket sales. I'm afraid I might have to believe the latter seeing as tours aren't usually an unexpected thing.

So I was disappointed, but life goes on. I want to see Gaga, but I have to find someone to go with. Apparently there are still tickets for her February performance at Madison Square Garden, but February is a long time away to plan something. So I'll see. I know I will see Gaga and meet her once in my life. There is no doubt in my mind about that.

I'd love to collaborate with her. I've been writing songs since I was 11. It'd be cool to produce one, one day. It's a goal of mine.

I'm kind of exhausted so sorry for a dull blog entry today. Maybe tomorrow I'll have more words of wisdom to offer.



Kindly,
Keith

I wouldn't change a thing

exhaustion.com

So I graduated. It is official. The ceremony was surprisingly short (thank God). I spotted my parents early on which made me happy. I sat next to my friend Lindsey and we announced names along with the announcers, only we announced names like 'lady gaga, britney spears, jermane dupri (a fav of mine to say, why I don't know?) and others.

It's all unreal and I'm just exhausted from a long day.

Last night was nice, got drinks with Trixy on Stone St. It was fun people watching all the Wall St. women and men. Then, I got to see Erica and Purvi's pad and catch up with Erica a bit. Trixy and I had a sleepover, except I barely slept... It was one of those half-awake-all-night kind of sleep's. Anyway, we were attempting to try and get on the today show this morning, but we had a hard enough time getting a cab at rush hour so we just went straight to Radio City. We arrived to a sea of caps and gowns, parents, friends, and family, chaos naturally ensued, but eventually we were ushered in to wait with our individual school of graduation, for an hour or so where we were fixed and adjusted before marching in to graduation which was a bit unorganized to say the least. The speakers were decent. Some lady started going through decades of her life and another guy discussed terrorism and global warming, but they weren't too horrid. Receiving my fake diploma, they mail the real one, was really exciting. Side-note, the "pants on the ground," guy is performing on American Idol right now. Maybe I'll be him when I grow up? Speaking of growing up, some girl decorated her cap to say "What now?" Which I guess might be the question for a lot of us. For me, I have moved back home to Jersey, and do not have a clue what's next. I like it this way. I want to be free to figure it all out. I know it'll all work out eventually. An important message we did receive today was to follow your heart. You might not be making the money you want, but you will be happier in the long run.

So, it is the end of one challenging, exciting, at times frightening chapter of my life and the beginning of another. I went from a scared, tender freshman at Fairleigh Dickinson University to a wild partier in the bright lights of New York City, to a world traveler going across the sea to London, alone. I would have never expected to do the things I have done, see the things I have seen, or learn the things I have learned. I have grown physically, spiritually, emotionally, intellectually, and worldly. I wouldn't change a thing.