being home can suck at times. i'm bored a lot. being unemployed is not as exciting as it sounds. i want to be doing something productive. i'm applyin for jobs. I want to work for a treatment center for substance abuse and addictions.
people can be confusing. and when i say people i have one person in mind. that's usually how it goes.
i try to put effort into people im interested in and often feel like it's unreturned. or unequal. hearing from people out of the blue can be strange and when you respond to no avail is stranger.
blah i just wish things were as simple as they seem to be in my head